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wow that feels a bit better. :)
Ok, what's new? boys, housesitting, friend stress, a busy and ever speeding up world seems to be going by too fast on self-destruct mode.
also I'm tired so everything seems more dramatic.
do you ever feel like you get haunted by names? like you meet one person and then another, and maybe another... that have the same name?? I've had this happen multiple times, and by the second month or so it starts to really sink in how mannerisms and other crap like that are the same between the name-sharers. Take Peter for instance: well there's my boss Peter, and then Peter in res - who, yes I had an insane crush on (turned out to be more a friend-crush. wish I knew that at the time...). Not saying my feelings toward them are the same, but they're interested in very similar spiritual concepts, etc, and Peter W (res) seems like a bit like what Peter (boss) would have been like when he was young...
Example #2, within 2 weeks I met 2 boys named Geoff (spelled the same, said the same, etc...) - i have a fantastic long term opportunity to get to know Geoff (1, we'll say...) who will be in Sackville for the fall semester, and hanging around getting to know me. Geoff (2) is the recipient of my first kiss. he's a beautiful boy (atleast in looks) and we had the most romantic (at the time - perhaps sensual...?) night last weekend as we shared sleeping quarters, but haven't heard from him since. In this case I can't say mannerisms are the same...but I am still baffled that within two weeks I am RANDOMLY and quite serindipously introduced to both. SOMETHING MUST BE UP. GOD, are you doing this? whyyyyyy?
anyways, I just hope things continue to be this freakily coincidental, it keeps me on my toes.
Not much else is new, I'm housesitting and loving the new digs, and yesterday was a fantastic day of independance in the city for a work meeting. I am so lucky and blessed to have opportunities to be so close to friends and even jobs like at AU. i thank the universe for providing and keeping everything in cycle. though I am still searching for the true purpose of my life and for the universe as well. whyyyy are things so confusing: well, as Dan Mangan says: if all this were easy it wouldn't matter how it ends. :) words to live by, I'd say.
yet, ms. burns brought up an excellent point too, which i'm not sure if it contrasts or enhances Mangan's point "It's all SO easy." as a way to motivate and stay ahead.
anyways, fod for thought, and allows me to rant.
goodnight world.
<3
-Jude
