Lost and buoyant, drifting in this boat
you come to mind as I continue to float
What's the world like past these shallow waves?
This I ask ye, the experienced sailor.
I've picked enough flowers of romantic notions
and plucked away my disinterest and shame,
tossed them into the oceans.
The teas and coffeespoons in foreign lands
I'm sure would help me think. Because the
water here's polluted and it's causing me to sink.
Capsizing, I know, is a possible fear,
but it's happened before and I've cried all those tears.
I'll travel along across this meadow of waves,
past many deep, scary caves,
with the intention of forgetting all the yesterdays.
Next time you go can I sit at your side?
Cocktail in hand, and I'll bring my pride.
If that's what it takes, but really I hope
you would prefer to drive bikes up and down
the coast of this lake. Portend to think and
splatter some ink bout the romance we'll determinedly make.
You'll fill up film and I'll fire up the kiln
and, thus, our evening is beautifully cast.
Of friendships in the past which have advanced
this fast, I was told it would never last.
But this seems hopeful and I wish you'd take control,
I need encouragement and support.
When it comes to hooking up I'd rather you push.
I'll be your bitch if you'll be my slave.
And if hard and fast is all you're prepared to give,
I'll open myself to the seafarer's waves.
Sunday, November 08, 2009
Thursday, November 05, 2009
There isn`t much I feel I need. A solid soul and the blood I bleed.
I want you more than you know. In more ways than one. I want your body. I want to caress your skin. I want your heart. I want you to let me in. I want your soul. It`s more beautiful than a thousand trees created by the perfect order. I want to take it on an adventure, and I hope you`ll want to reciprocate. I want to give you my virginity, because honey it`s a ticking time bomb, bitching with chastity.
A kiss isn`t a relationship. A kiss is an interface. A dialogue. A discomfort. A release. A system of beliefs. I don`t know what to say to move from friends to more, but if we can`t reach top score, I`ll hold on to now forever.
Let me in. Don`t you dare push me away. Come to me as a voice of confidence. I promise I will (not) pretend you`re just another voice in my mind. I though I knew your kind, though I`m only learning, now, you`re beyond my most extreme surprise.
You`ve enlivened me more than a religion. Tradition is comforting, but the soul at rest is unprofessionally distraught.
Your eyes. They still mystify me. Like the stars, moon and Milky Way, life is revealed and reflected from your eyes. Mirrors of life are everywhere. Look to them for reflection, not each other. Consultation, Desperation, and Elevation, but never reflection. Figure it out while we talk. Don`t pretend it all falls together. Be spontaneous to delicious life. Be excited for delivering beauty.
Become what you`ve been trying to be.
It`s ok.
A kiss isn`t a relationship. A kiss is an interface. A dialogue. A discomfort. A release. A system of beliefs. I don`t know what to say to move from friends to more, but if we can`t reach top score, I`ll hold on to now forever.
Let me in. Don`t you dare push me away. Come to me as a voice of confidence. I promise I will (not) pretend you`re just another voice in my mind. I though I knew your kind, though I`m only learning, now, you`re beyond my most extreme surprise.
You`ve enlivened me more than a religion. Tradition is comforting, but the soul at rest is unprofessionally distraught.
Your eyes. They still mystify me. Like the stars, moon and Milky Way, life is revealed and reflected from your eyes. Mirrors of life are everywhere. Look to them for reflection, not each other. Consultation, Desperation, and Elevation, but never reflection. Figure it out while we talk. Don`t pretend it all falls together. Be spontaneous to delicious life. Be excited for delivering beauty.
Become what you`ve been trying to be.
It`s ok.
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
It's Time.
Hello Blogworld.
So. It's been far too long since I've sat at this (ok, well, any) desk and just WRITE. So this is what i plan on doing tonight.
Why tonight? Because I don't plan on sleeping for a while, though I feel more like output than input tonight. In other words, I would rather write than read. A further reason is that I have just went for an exhilarating walk in the Sackville nighttime mist with Nathan and Derek, two frosh from 2nd East this year.
I then took a shower because I felt extremely mosit after walking in the mist... and now need to wait for my hair to dry.
These are the means by which I have sat down with excited fingers. Though my motivation for writing is also important. And it is connected to the events earlier tonight. Walks are important to clear out one's mind and serve as a refreshing breath. Although solitary walks often are necessary, they usually end up filling one's brain up even more and allow no room for output.
Walks with other people are essential for two reasons. They allow you to grow in your relationships with those whom you are walking. They also allow and create a very healthy environment for output. From everyone. And that is the greatest stress reliever.
I worry I do not make the best use of my time, or my words, or my capacity for ideas. Though unfortunately the time spent worrying is a larger waste of time and results in lower productivity.
Why am I rambling about theoretical stuff? I intended to debrief about the walk. I intended to ramble about my pursued goal and my secret goal in life. I intended to be just a little bit dramatic. But what happened...I got ahead of myself. I jumped to conclusions, assumptions, and broad definitions without actually understanding the specifics.
Why am I so scared of writing it all down... because we all know the permanence of words. The minute they are down they cannot be taken back. They can be forgiven but not entirely erased.
Anyways. What is it exactly that I am so dreadfully (oh, come on. stop being so dramatic...) afraid of saying?
I think I like Nathan. There. That's it. Let the crazy obsession begin.
Except no. I don't want to crazy obsessed over a 'boy'. I want to actually become his friend. And talk about things, like tonight. And gain his trust. And become someone respectable.
I actually want to be an artist. I want to save the world with NGO's but I want to be a crazy artist living in a loft in Brooklyn or LA, or Toronto or Vancouver. I dream of the extravagent lifestyle. But I am so convinced I have to be practical. WHY!?!
I want to tell Nathan that I actually want to be an artist. If I had my way I would paint and draw and take pictures all day long. And then write about it.
I am dreadfully afraid and unmotivated with school this year. I wonder if I'm taking all the wrong classes, or if I am just not applying myself in a way which will be 'prodcutive'. I want to do well. But as always, i want to care about what I'm working on.
In my life, whatever I do, I will journal. In pictures, and in words. In the moments full of life, and in the moments of ultimate desperation. I want to be able to have a clear head going into my daily life. i want to know how to get all the emotional stuff out of the way so I can be scientific about my papers and reading. With application and attention to detail. Scientific precision is necessary in so many disciplines. I cannot imagine a life without the study of science. It has caused a great amount of controversy, though it has proved to be SO important to our lives.
One question I have just begun to consider is what lies in the future for the world and for all of us? If we will soon run out of resources and all that goes along with that, then how do we expect to perpetuate our life of technology. Will our creative outputs feel left out if the corporations take over? Will machines and 'faster ways of doing things' eventually dissolve our world away?
I hope not. And I hope that we soon learn ways to minimize our use of electronics so that we are no longer dependant on them for living. That is one goal I hope we succeed in completing. I want to see a more ethical use of the technology we are given. And while there are many large scale projects already existing, there are many more undercover individuals and organizations which undermine the progress made by the overachievers.
I hope we soon realise the world must become larger with some more restrictive boundaries, to minimize our travel and consumption. This may only need to be a temporary goal if sustainable energy is developed though, because with sustainable energy we can power the ships and planes and other modes of transportation. This allows for more transportation at a lower cost to the environment.
Eventually a cohabitable planet would be amazing. If we could all organize a system of trade where the economy and environment equaled a net benefit we would be golden. I hope to see serious progress towards that on all levels of class, religion, gender, and nationality within my lifetime. It must be possible. War is not innate. With education the instinct towards violence can be surpressed and mediated. With academic education the possibility for learning operation of armoury is deleted. With guns and violence not being present we are likely to be productive, healthy, and unstressed. Trade and political wars would also be marked as irrelavent.
I suppose I am very much a political idealist, though I see the struggle in change. I believe that art can change people. It is a powerful force. Unfortunately it is commonly used discreetly or with negative intentions through advertising, publications, and home decor. Without active attention to a piece of art, the beauty and intellectual stimulation is lost to the subconscious. I wish there was a way for us to recap an art sighting with people on the street. Then they would understand why they are attracted to the art and attach a word to that confused emotion they were struggling with while viewing the piece.
I want to extend this but I think I should get enough sleep tonight. It is nevessary.
I hope to have figured a few things out with OTHER people awful soon.
Maybe I'll actually be able to carry on a conversation about this stuff out loud in public. egads! :P
Good night non descript public world. :)
-Judi
So. It's been far too long since I've sat at this (ok, well, any) desk and just WRITE. So this is what i plan on doing tonight.
Why tonight? Because I don't plan on sleeping for a while, though I feel more like output than input tonight. In other words, I would rather write than read. A further reason is that I have just went for an exhilarating walk in the Sackville nighttime mist with Nathan and Derek, two frosh from 2nd East this year.
I then took a shower because I felt extremely mosit after walking in the mist... and now need to wait for my hair to dry.
These are the means by which I have sat down with excited fingers. Though my motivation for writing is also important. And it is connected to the events earlier tonight. Walks are important to clear out one's mind and serve as a refreshing breath. Although solitary walks often are necessary, they usually end up filling one's brain up even more and allow no room for output.
Walks with other people are essential for two reasons. They allow you to grow in your relationships with those whom you are walking. They also allow and create a very healthy environment for output. From everyone. And that is the greatest stress reliever.
I worry I do not make the best use of my time, or my words, or my capacity for ideas. Though unfortunately the time spent worrying is a larger waste of time and results in lower productivity.
Why am I rambling about theoretical stuff? I intended to debrief about the walk. I intended to ramble about my pursued goal and my secret goal in life. I intended to be just a little bit dramatic. But what happened...I got ahead of myself. I jumped to conclusions, assumptions, and broad definitions without actually understanding the specifics.
Why am I so scared of writing it all down... because we all know the permanence of words. The minute they are down they cannot be taken back. They can be forgiven but not entirely erased.
Anyways. What is it exactly that I am so dreadfully (oh, come on. stop being so dramatic...) afraid of saying?
I think I like Nathan. There. That's it. Let the crazy obsession begin.
Except no. I don't want to crazy obsessed over a 'boy'. I want to actually become his friend. And talk about things, like tonight. And gain his trust. And become someone respectable.
I actually want to be an artist. I want to save the world with NGO's but I want to be a crazy artist living in a loft in Brooklyn or LA, or Toronto or Vancouver. I dream of the extravagent lifestyle. But I am so convinced I have to be practical. WHY!?!
I want to tell Nathan that I actually want to be an artist. If I had my way I would paint and draw and take pictures all day long. And then write about it.
I am dreadfully afraid and unmotivated with school this year. I wonder if I'm taking all the wrong classes, or if I am just not applying myself in a way which will be 'prodcutive'. I want to do well. But as always, i want to care about what I'm working on.
In my life, whatever I do, I will journal. In pictures, and in words. In the moments full of life, and in the moments of ultimate desperation. I want to be able to have a clear head going into my daily life. i want to know how to get all the emotional stuff out of the way so I can be scientific about my papers and reading. With application and attention to detail. Scientific precision is necessary in so many disciplines. I cannot imagine a life without the study of science. It has caused a great amount of controversy, though it has proved to be SO important to our lives.
One question I have just begun to consider is what lies in the future for the world and for all of us? If we will soon run out of resources and all that goes along with that, then how do we expect to perpetuate our life of technology. Will our creative outputs feel left out if the corporations take over? Will machines and 'faster ways of doing things' eventually dissolve our world away?
I hope not. And I hope that we soon learn ways to minimize our use of electronics so that we are no longer dependant on them for living. That is one goal I hope we succeed in completing. I want to see a more ethical use of the technology we are given. And while there are many large scale projects already existing, there are many more undercover individuals and organizations which undermine the progress made by the overachievers.
I hope we soon realise the world must become larger with some more restrictive boundaries, to minimize our travel and consumption. This may only need to be a temporary goal if sustainable energy is developed though, because with sustainable energy we can power the ships and planes and other modes of transportation. This allows for more transportation at a lower cost to the environment.
Eventually a cohabitable planet would be amazing. If we could all organize a system of trade where the economy and environment equaled a net benefit we would be golden. I hope to see serious progress towards that on all levels of class, religion, gender, and nationality within my lifetime. It must be possible. War is not innate. With education the instinct towards violence can be surpressed and mediated. With academic education the possibility for learning operation of armoury is deleted. With guns and violence not being present we are likely to be productive, healthy, and unstressed. Trade and political wars would also be marked as irrelavent.
I suppose I am very much a political idealist, though I see the struggle in change. I believe that art can change people. It is a powerful force. Unfortunately it is commonly used discreetly or with negative intentions through advertising, publications, and home decor. Without active attention to a piece of art, the beauty and intellectual stimulation is lost to the subconscious. I wish there was a way for us to recap an art sighting with people on the street. Then they would understand why they are attracted to the art and attach a word to that confused emotion they were struggling with while viewing the piece.
I want to extend this but I think I should get enough sleep tonight. It is nevessary.
I hope to have figured a few things out with OTHER people awful soon.
Maybe I'll actually be able to carry on a conversation about this stuff out loud in public. egads! :P
Good night non descript public world. :)
-Judi
Monday, August 17, 2009
Two songs I wish I wrote.
Smiling
ooh ooh ooh
ooh ooh ooh
I like to pretend you're watchin' me
could it be possibility
I wonder what you're thinking
ooh ooh ooh
ooh ooh ooh
Do you wonder if I have a heart
do you wonder if I play guitar
I do, but only one of the two
wooah oh..
You're beautiful, you are beautiful
you've got your nose in a book
and all I need is a look to know
you are beautiful, you are beautiful
you've got your nose in a book
and all I need is a look to know
to know you, you, you
From behind your coffee cup
onto the wooden seat that holds you up
you float, over to me
without leavin' your seat, or makin' a scene
I wonder if you live too far,
house, appartment, shopping cart
I hope you're warm when the night comes
oooh oooh ooh
oooh oooh woahh.
You're beautiful, you are beautiful
you've got your nose in a book
and all I need is a look to know
you are beautiful, you are beautiful
you've got your nose in a book
and all I need is a look to know
to know you, you, you
you leave me, yah you leave me
you leave me, yah you leave me
you leave me smilin' , smilin'
and I hope to see you again
I hope to see you smilin'
smilin', ooh smilin'
I hope to see you smilin'
--------------
Great Big City
Intruiging, intruiging, you are so intruiging
It's something I just can't deny
I'd spend the rest of the night by your side,
sippin my beans, and breaking your ice.
Well sweaters aside, you are something that I've missed
and wished on for years and a day
it's both an honor and priveledge to meet you
I hope you remember me.
when you're back into the great big city
with those French communities
bummin yourself downtown
pullin money up out of the ground
bummin around
makin us so damn proud.
mmhmm
so damn proud.
now who am i kidding i'm no prize for wedding
you would make me look good
but you seem like the type who would open doors for me
and wait up until I dozed away sleeping
it's so sad you're leaving
leaving
to the great big city
with those french communities
bummin yourself downtown
pullin money up and out of the ground
bummin around
making us so damn proud
Intruiging intruiging you are so intruiging
I know.
Intruiging intruiging I just cannot seem to let go
Intruiging intruiging you are so intruiging I know
Intruiging intruiging I just cannot seem to let go
when you're back into that great big city
with those french communities
bummin yourself downtown
pullin money up and out of the ground
bummin around
making us so damn proud
so damn proud
so damn proud
so damn proud
so damn proud.
----------
Both songs are by Meaghan Blanchard, a friend of mine (and my cousin's ex) on PEI. She has an amazing folksy voice and writes her own fantastic lyrics and chords. :D I love the album.
ooh ooh ooh
ooh ooh ooh
I like to pretend you're watchin' me
could it be possibility
I wonder what you're thinking
ooh ooh ooh
ooh ooh ooh
Do you wonder if I have a heart
do you wonder if I play guitar
I do, but only one of the two
wooah oh..
You're beautiful, you are beautiful
you've got your nose in a book
and all I need is a look to know
you are beautiful, you are beautiful
you've got your nose in a book
and all I need is a look to know
to know you, you, you
From behind your coffee cup
onto the wooden seat that holds you up
you float, over to me
without leavin' your seat, or makin' a scene
I wonder if you live too far,
house, appartment, shopping cart
I hope you're warm when the night comes
oooh oooh ooh
oooh oooh woahh.
You're beautiful, you are beautiful
you've got your nose in a book
and all I need is a look to know
you are beautiful, you are beautiful
you've got your nose in a book
and all I need is a look to know
to know you, you, you
you leave me, yah you leave me
you leave me, yah you leave me
you leave me smilin' , smilin'
and I hope to see you again
I hope to see you smilin'
smilin', ooh smilin'
I hope to see you smilin'
--------------
Great Big City
Intruiging, intruiging, you are so intruiging
It's something I just can't deny
I'd spend the rest of the night by your side,
sippin my beans, and breaking your ice.
Well sweaters aside, you are something that I've missed
and wished on for years and a day
it's both an honor and priveledge to meet you
I hope you remember me.
when you're back into the great big city
with those French communities
bummin yourself downtown
pullin money up out of the ground
bummin around
makin us so damn proud.
mmhmm
so damn proud.
now who am i kidding i'm no prize for wedding
you would make me look good
but you seem like the type who would open doors for me
and wait up until I dozed away sleeping
it's so sad you're leaving
leaving
to the great big city
with those french communities
bummin yourself downtown
pullin money up and out of the ground
bummin around
making us so damn proud
Intruiging intruiging you are so intruiging
I know.
Intruiging intruiging I just cannot seem to let go
Intruiging intruiging you are so intruiging I know
Intruiging intruiging I just cannot seem to let go
when you're back into that great big city
with those french communities
bummin yourself downtown
pullin money up and out of the ground
bummin around
making us so damn proud
so damn proud
so damn proud
so damn proud
so damn proud.
----------
Both songs are by Meaghan Blanchard, a friend of mine (and my cousin's ex) on PEI. She has an amazing folksy voice and writes her own fantastic lyrics and chords. :D I love the album.
Wednesday, August 05, 2009
Getting Over You
There's no way that's all I meant
there's still so much left unsaid
I just had to let you know enough
so I could clear my cloudy head
Everyword I said was truthful
Everyline was carefully planned
But it only skimmed the surface
of every word I'd previously canned.
I may be clumsy when I'm around you
but baby that's because I'm falling for ya.
Sooner or later you'll have to be pickin me up
off this hardwood cuz me, I'm havin no luck!
Of all the words I could have said
to right this wrong we left for dead
I chose the vacant empty phrases, only
keeping us in silent cages.
Lyrics, perhaps? hey Libster, I need you. ;) lol.
-Judi <3
there's still so much left unsaid
I just had to let you know enough
so I could clear my cloudy head
Everyword I said was truthful
Everyline was carefully planned
But it only skimmed the surface
of every word I'd previously canned.
I may be clumsy when I'm around you
but baby that's because I'm falling for ya.
Sooner or later you'll have to be pickin me up
off this hardwood cuz me, I'm havin no luck!
Of all the words I could have said
to right this wrong we left for dead
I chose the vacant empty phrases, only
keeping us in silent cages.
Lyrics, perhaps? hey Libster, I need you. ;) lol.
-Judi <3
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Carrie Underwood - So Small
What you got if you aint got love?
The kind that you just wanna give away
It's okay to open up
Go ahead and let the light shine through
I know it's hard on a rainy day
You wanna shut the world out
And just be left alone
Don't run out on your faith
Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
What you've been out there searching for forever,
Is in your hands
When you figure out love is all that matters, after all
It sure makes everything else
Seem so small
It's so easy to get lost inside
A problem that seems so big, at the time
It's like a river that's so wide
It swallows you whole
While you're sittin round thinking about what you can't change
And worryin' about all the wrong things
Time's flying by, moving so fast
You better make it count, cause you can't get it back
Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
What you've been out there searchin for forever
Is in your hands
Oh, When you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else
Seem so small
Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
What you've been out there searchin for forever
Is in your hands
Oh, When you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else
Oh it sure makes everything else
Seem so small
- SO all the girls from First Girls are leaving, and the university year is coming to a close. It will be unbearable to be away from so many beautiful people in Harper for 4 months...:(
This song makes me realize that this year was only the first of many with these people...and it made me realize alot about myself -- that I can struggle through school and still succeed, and still make friends, and still manage to attempt awesomeness through achieving simple things.
It is every small thing everyday that makes the memories! It is the loss of one thing that makes us realize we want it most!
I am excited for summer, but I will likely be more excited to be back here in September!
:'( it's a sad day. Let pathetic fallacy strike. Let the tears come, BRING IT ON!
:O Year 1 is only two exams away from being over!!!
The kind that you just wanna give away
It's okay to open up
Go ahead and let the light shine through
I know it's hard on a rainy day
You wanna shut the world out
And just be left alone
Don't run out on your faith
Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
What you've been out there searching for forever,
Is in your hands
When you figure out love is all that matters, after all
It sure makes everything else
Seem so small
It's so easy to get lost inside
A problem that seems so big, at the time
It's like a river that's so wide
It swallows you whole
While you're sittin round thinking about what you can't change
And worryin' about all the wrong things
Time's flying by, moving so fast
You better make it count, cause you can't get it back
Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
What you've been out there searchin for forever
Is in your hands
Oh, When you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else
Seem so small
Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
What you've been out there searchin for forever
Is in your hands
Oh, When you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else
Oh it sure makes everything else
Seem so small
- SO all the girls from First Girls are leaving, and the university year is coming to a close. It will be unbearable to be away from so many beautiful people in Harper for 4 months...:(
This song makes me realize that this year was only the first of many with these people...and it made me realize alot about myself -- that I can struggle through school and still succeed, and still make friends, and still manage to attempt awesomeness through achieving simple things.
It is every small thing everyday that makes the memories! It is the loss of one thing that makes us realize we want it most!
I am excited for summer, but I will likely be more excited to be back here in September!
:'( it's a sad day. Let pathetic fallacy strike. Let the tears come, BRING IT ON!
:O Year 1 is only two exams away from being over!!!
Monday, April 20, 2009
4:12
My flickr name is dare.to.be412: so I wanted to know if there was anything in the Bible that my subconscious was referring to. Here's every 4:12 (4th chapter, 12th verse) that is in the book. Some seem absolutely irrelevent and others are quite immediate. I find it pretty fascinating. :O
Genesis: "When you work the ground, it will no longer yield its crops for you. You will be a restless wanderer on the earth."
Exodus: "Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say."
Leviticus: "that is, all the rest of the bull—he must take outside the camp to a place ceremonially clean, where the ashes are thrown, and burn it in a wood fire on the ash heap."
Numbers: "They are to take all the articles used for ministering in the sanctuary, wrap them in a blue cloth, cover that with hides
of sea cows and put them on a carrying frame."
Deuteronomy: "Then the LORD spoke to you out of the fire. You heard the sound of words but saw no form; there was only a voice. "
Joshua: "The men of Reuben, Gad and the half-tribe of Manasseh crossed over, armed, in front of the Israelites, as Moses had directed them."
Judges: "When they told Sisera that Barak son of Abinoam had gone up to Mount Tabor, "
Ruth: "Through the offspring the LORD gives you by this young woman, may your family be like that of Perez, whom Tamar bore to Judah."
1 Samuel: "That same day a Benjamite ran from the battle line and went to Shiloh, his clothes torn and dust on his head."
2 Samuel: "So David gave an order to his men, and they killed them. They cut off their hands and feet and hung the bodies by the pool in Hebron. But they took the head of Ish-Bosheth and buried it in Abner's tomb at Hebron."
1 Kings: " Baana son of Ahilud—in Taanach and Megiddo, and in all of Beth Shan next to Zarethan below Jezreel, from Beth Shan to Abel Meholah across to Jokmeam"
2 Kings: "He said to his servant Gehazi, "Call the Shunammite." So he called her, and she stood before him."
1 Chronicles: "Eshton was the father of Beth Rapha, Paseah and Tehinnah the father of Ir Nahash. [d] These were the men of Recah"
2 Chronicles: "the two pillars; the two bowl-shaped capitals on top of the pillars; the two sets of network decorating the two bowl-shaped capitals on top of the pillars"
Ezra: "The king should know that the Jews who came up to us from you have gone to Jerusalem and are rebuilding that rebellious and wicked city. They are restoring the walls and repairing the foundations."
Nehemiah: "Then the Jews who lived near them came and told us ten times over, "Wherever you turn, they will attack us."
Esther: "When Esther's words were reported to Mordecai,"
Job: "A word was secretly brought to me; my ears caught a whisper of it."
Psalm: --
Proverbs: "When you walk, your steps will not be hampered; when you run, you will not stumble."
Ecclesiastes: "Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken."
Song of Solomon: "You are a garden locked up, my sister, my bride; you are a spring enclosed, a sealed fountain."
Isaiah: --
Jeremiah: "a wind too strong for that comes from me. [a] Now I pronounce my judgments against them."
Lamentations: "The kings of the earth did not believe, nor did any of the world's people, that enemies and foes could enter the gates of Jerusalem."
Ezekiel: "Eat the food as you would a barley cake; bake it in the sight of the people, using human excrement for fuel."
Daniel: "Its leaves were beautiful, its fruit abundant, and on it was food for all. Under it the beasts of the field found shelter, and the birds of the air lived in its branches; from it every creature was fed."
Hosea: "of my people. They consult a wooden idol and are answered by a stick of wood. A spirit of prostitution leads them stray; they are unfaithful to their God.
Joel: --
Amos: "Therefore this is what I will do to you, Israel, and because I will do this to you, prepare to meet your God, O Israel."
Obadiah: --
Jonah: --
Micah: "But they do not know the thoughts of the LORD; they do not understand his plan, he who gathers them like sheaves to the threshing floor.
Nahum: --
Habbakuk: --
Zephaniah: --
Haggai: --
Zechariah: "Again I asked him, "What are these two olive branches beside the two gold pipes that pour out golden oil?"
Malachi: --
Matthew: "When Jesus heard that John had been put in prison, he returned to Galilee"
Mark: "so that, 'they may be ever seeing but never perceiving, and ever hearing but never understanding; otherwise they might turn and be forgiven!' "
Luke: "Jesus answered, "It says: 'Do not put the Lord your God to the test.' "
John: "Are you greater than our father Jacob, who gave us the well and drank from it himself, as did also his sons and his flocks and herds?"
Acts: "Salvation is found in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given to men by which we must be saved."
Romans: "And he is also the father of the circumcised who not only are circumcised but who also walk in the footsteps of the faith that our father Abraham had before he was circumcised."
1 Corinthians: "We work hard with our own hands. When we are cursed, we bless; when we are persecuted, we endure it"
2 Corinthians: "because we know that the one who raised the Lord Jesus from the dead will also raise us with Jesus and present us with you in his presence."
Galatians: "I plead with you, brothers, become like me, for I became like you. You have done me no wrong."
Ephesians: "to prepare God's people for works of service, so that the body of Christ may be built up"
Philippians: "Now I want you to know, brothers, that what has happened to me has really served to advance the gospel."
Colossians: "Epaphras, who is one of you and a servant of Christ Jesus, sends greetings. He is always wrestling in prayer for you, that you may stand firm in all the will of God, mature and fully assured."
1 Thessalonians: "so that your daily life may win the respect of outsiders and so that you will not be dependent on anybody."
2 Thessalonians: --
1 Timothy: "Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity."
2 Timothy: "I sent Tychicus to Ephesus."
Titus: --
Philemon: --
Hebrews: "For the word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart."
James: "There is only one Lawgiver and Judge, the one who is able to save and destroy. But you—who are you to judge your neighbor?"
1 Peter: "Dear friends, do not be surprised at the painful trial you are suffering, as though something strange were happening to you."
2 Peter: --
1 John: "No one has ever seen God; but if we love one another, God lives in us and his love is made complete in us."
2 John: --
3 John: --
Jude: -- (1:4 =For certain men whose condemnation was written about[a] long ago have secretly slipped in among you. They are godless men, who change the grace of our God into a license for immorality and deny Jesus Christ our only Sovereign and Lord.)
Revelation: -- (4:11 = "You are worthy, our Lord and God, to receive glory and honor and power, for you created all things, and by your will they were created and have their being.")
Also, here's the Numbers 12 (4th book, 12th chapter):
Miriam and Aaron Oppose Moses
1 Miriam and Aaron began to talk against Moses because of his Cushite wife, for he had married a Cushite. 2 "Has the LORD spoken only through Moses?" they asked. "Hasn't he also spoken through us?" And the LORD heard this.
3 (Now Moses was a very humble man, more humble than anyone else on the face of the earth.)
4 At once the LORD said to Moses, Aaron and Miriam, "Come out to the Tent of Meeting, all three of you." So the three of them came out. 5 Then the LORD came down in a pillar of cloud; he stood at the entrance to the Tent and summoned Aaron and Miriam. When both of them stepped forward, 6 he said, "Listen to my words:
"When a prophet of the LORD is among you,
I reveal myself to him in visions,
I speak to him in dreams.
7 But this is not true of my servant Moses;
he is faithful in all my house.
8 With him I speak face to face,
clearly and not in riddles;
he sees the form of the LORD.
Why then were you not afraid
to speak against my servant Moses?"
9 The anger of the LORD burned against them, and he left them.
10 When the cloud lifted from above the Tent, there stood Miriam—leprous, [a] like snow. Aaron turned toward her and saw that she had leprosy; 11 and he said to Moses, "Please, my lord, do not hold against us the sin we have so foolishly committed. 12 Do not let her be like a stillborn infant coming from its mother's womb with its flesh half eaten away."
13 So Moses cried out to the LORD, "O God, please heal her!"
14 The LORD replied to Moses, "If her father had spit in her face, would she not have been in disgrace for seven days? Confine her outside the camp for seven days; after that she can be brought back." 15 So Miriam was confined outside the camp for seven days, and the people did not move on till she was brought back.
16 After that, the people left Hazeroth and encamped in the Desert of Paran.
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Anyways, I don't know what I conclude from this, but it's interesting, and just plain NEAT/ Fun.
:) <3 V
Genesis: "When you work the ground, it will no longer yield its crops for you. You will be a restless wanderer on the earth."
Exodus: "Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say."
Leviticus: "that is, all the rest of the bull—he must take outside the camp to a place ceremonially clean, where the ashes are thrown, and burn it in a wood fire on the ash heap."
Numbers: "They are to take all the articles used for ministering in the sanctuary, wrap them in a blue cloth, cover that with hides
of sea cows and put them on a carrying frame."
Deuteronomy: "Then the LORD spoke to you out of the fire. You heard the sound of words but saw no form; there was only a voice. "
Joshua: "The men of Reuben, Gad and the half-tribe of Manasseh crossed over, armed, in front of the Israelites, as Moses had directed them."
Judges: "When they told Sisera that Barak son of Abinoam had gone up to Mount Tabor, "
Ruth: "Through the offspring the LORD gives you by this young woman, may your family be like that of Perez, whom Tamar bore to Judah."
1 Samuel: "That same day a Benjamite ran from the battle line and went to Shiloh, his clothes torn and dust on his head."
2 Samuel: "So David gave an order to his men, and they killed them. They cut off their hands and feet and hung the bodies by the pool in Hebron. But they took the head of Ish-Bosheth and buried it in Abner's tomb at Hebron."
1 Kings: " Baana son of Ahilud—in Taanach and Megiddo, and in all of Beth Shan next to Zarethan below Jezreel, from Beth Shan to Abel Meholah across to Jokmeam"
2 Kings: "He said to his servant Gehazi, "Call the Shunammite." So he called her, and she stood before him."
1 Chronicles: "Eshton was the father of Beth Rapha, Paseah and Tehinnah the father of Ir Nahash. [d] These were the men of Recah"
2 Chronicles: "the two pillars; the two bowl-shaped capitals on top of the pillars; the two sets of network decorating the two bowl-shaped capitals on top of the pillars"
Ezra: "The king should know that the Jews who came up to us from you have gone to Jerusalem and are rebuilding that rebellious and wicked city. They are restoring the walls and repairing the foundations."
Nehemiah: "Then the Jews who lived near them came and told us ten times over, "Wherever you turn, they will attack us."
Esther: "When Esther's words were reported to Mordecai,"
Job: "A word was secretly brought to me; my ears caught a whisper of it."
Psalm: --
Proverbs: "When you walk, your steps will not be hampered; when you run, you will not stumble."
Ecclesiastes: "Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken."
Song of Solomon: "You are a garden locked up, my sister, my bride; you are a spring enclosed, a sealed fountain."
Isaiah: --
Jeremiah: "a wind too strong for that comes from me. [a] Now I pronounce my judgments against them."
Lamentations: "The kings of the earth did not believe, nor did any of the world's people, that enemies and foes could enter the gates of Jerusalem."
Ezekiel: "Eat the food as you would a barley cake; bake it in the sight of the people, using human excrement for fuel."
Daniel: "Its leaves were beautiful, its fruit abundant, and on it was food for all. Under it the beasts of the field found shelter, and the birds of the air lived in its branches; from it every creature was fed."
Hosea: "of my people. They consult a wooden idol and are answered by a stick of wood. A spirit of prostitution leads them stray; they are unfaithful to their God.
Joel: --
Amos: "Therefore this is what I will do to you, Israel, and because I will do this to you, prepare to meet your God, O Israel."
Obadiah: --
Jonah: --
Micah: "But they do not know the thoughts of the LORD; they do not understand his plan, he who gathers them like sheaves to the threshing floor.
Nahum: --
Habbakuk: --
Zephaniah: --
Haggai: --
Zechariah: "Again I asked him, "What are these two olive branches beside the two gold pipes that pour out golden oil?"
Malachi: --
Matthew: "When Jesus heard that John had been put in prison, he returned to Galilee"
Mark: "so that, 'they may be ever seeing but never perceiving, and ever hearing but never understanding; otherwise they might turn and be forgiven!' "
Luke: "Jesus answered, "It says: 'Do not put the Lord your God to the test.' "
John: "Are you greater than our father Jacob, who gave us the well and drank from it himself, as did also his sons and his flocks and herds?"
Acts: "Salvation is found in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given to men by which we must be saved."
Romans: "And he is also the father of the circumcised who not only are circumcised but who also walk in the footsteps of the faith that our father Abraham had before he was circumcised."
1 Corinthians: "We work hard with our own hands. When we are cursed, we bless; when we are persecuted, we endure it"
2 Corinthians: "because we know that the one who raised the Lord Jesus from the dead will also raise us with Jesus and present us with you in his presence."
Galatians: "I plead with you, brothers, become like me, for I became like you. You have done me no wrong."
Ephesians: "to prepare God's people for works of service, so that the body of Christ may be built up"
Philippians: "Now I want you to know, brothers, that what has happened to me has really served to advance the gospel."
Colossians: "Epaphras, who is one of you and a servant of Christ Jesus, sends greetings. He is always wrestling in prayer for you, that you may stand firm in all the will of God, mature and fully assured."
1 Thessalonians: "so that your daily life may win the respect of outsiders and so that you will not be dependent on anybody."
2 Thessalonians: --
1 Timothy: "Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity."
2 Timothy: "I sent Tychicus to Ephesus."
Titus: --
Philemon: --
Hebrews: "For the word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart."
James: "There is only one Lawgiver and Judge, the one who is able to save and destroy. But you—who are you to judge your neighbor?"
1 Peter: "Dear friends, do not be surprised at the painful trial you are suffering, as though something strange were happening to you."
2 Peter: --
1 John: "No one has ever seen God; but if we love one another, God lives in us and his love is made complete in us."
2 John: --
3 John: --
Jude: -- (1:4 =For certain men whose condemnation was written about[a] long ago have secretly slipped in among you. They are godless men, who change the grace of our God into a license for immorality and deny Jesus Christ our only Sovereign and Lord.)
Revelation: -- (4:11 = "You are worthy, our Lord and God, to receive glory and honor and power, for you created all things, and by your will they were created and have their being.")
Also, here's the Numbers 12 (4th book, 12th chapter):
Miriam and Aaron Oppose Moses
1 Miriam and Aaron began to talk against Moses because of his Cushite wife, for he had married a Cushite. 2 "Has the LORD spoken only through Moses?" they asked. "Hasn't he also spoken through us?" And the LORD heard this.
3 (Now Moses was a very humble man, more humble than anyone else on the face of the earth.)
4 At once the LORD said to Moses, Aaron and Miriam, "Come out to the Tent of Meeting, all three of you." So the three of them came out. 5 Then the LORD came down in a pillar of cloud; he stood at the entrance to the Tent and summoned Aaron and Miriam. When both of them stepped forward, 6 he said, "Listen to my words:
"When a prophet of the LORD is among you,
I reveal myself to him in visions,
I speak to him in dreams.
7 But this is not true of my servant Moses;
he is faithful in all my house.
8 With him I speak face to face,
clearly and not in riddles;
he sees the form of the LORD.
Why then were you not afraid
to speak against my servant Moses?"
9 The anger of the LORD burned against them, and he left them.
10 When the cloud lifted from above the Tent, there stood Miriam—leprous, [a] like snow. Aaron turned toward her and saw that she had leprosy; 11 and he said to Moses, "Please, my lord, do not hold against us the sin we have so foolishly committed. 12 Do not let her be like a stillborn infant coming from its mother's womb with its flesh half eaten away."
13 So Moses cried out to the LORD, "O God, please heal her!"
14 The LORD replied to Moses, "If her father had spit in her face, would she not have been in disgrace for seven days? Confine her outside the camp for seven days; after that she can be brought back." 15 So Miriam was confined outside the camp for seven days, and the people did not move on till she was brought back.
16 After that, the people left Hazeroth and encamped in the Desert of Paran.
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Anyways, I don't know what I conclude from this, but it's interesting, and just plain NEAT/ Fun.
:) <3 V
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Happy Easter!
"And you asked me what I want this year and I try to make this kind and clear just a chance that maybe we'll find better day 'cause I don't need boxes wrapped in strings and designer love and empty things just a chance that maybe we'll find better days. So take these words and sing out loud 'cause everyone is forgiven now 'cause tonight's the night the world begins again. I need some place simple where we could live and something only you can give and that's faith and trust and peace while we're alive and the one poor child who saved this world and there's ten million more who probably could if we all just stopped and said a prayer for them. So take these words and sing out loud 'cause everyone is forgiven now, 'cause tonight's the night the world begins again. I wish everyone was loved tonight and somehow stop this endless fight just a chance that maybe we'll find better days. So take these words and sing out loud 'cause everyone is forgiven now 'cause tonight's the night the world begins again 'cause tonight's the night the world begins again." -BETTER DAYS, Goo Goo Dolls.
Happy Easter to you in the world.
TO everyone who doesn't believe in the power and meaning behind this day, I pray you will soon come to understand. but more than that I hope you will help a friend, or help a stranger; or take a moment to live a little. laugh a little. be free. Because you are. you are forgiven for anything you have ever done by jesus, and you are now free to BE.
From an unlikely prophet I was welcomed into the truth. The Goo Goo Dolls came up on my stereo and I thought, wow, I didn't know they were Christian. but then I realized even if that's not true, the message is the same: that everyone is forgiven now, and it is our chance for renewal. Christmas: take two, perhaps. It is a rebirth of life in the world. We are set free from the dirth and dirge of the Lenten season. The flowers spring up (or the snow blankets the earth in some places...) and we are reminded of the glorious emergence of the holy son in supreme power and might.
This song is absoultely perfect for this day, it is about renewal, second chances and HOPE in the power of the people, not in the isolated power of the One. He has given us the same home, and the same power to set others free. It is a good day, because we are allowed to recognize the beauty in the world, and that from every torturous moment, there is an exodus, a revelation of a hopeful future. :D
Thank you God, and the Goo Goo Dolls.
Hallelujah.
-Judi
Happy Easter to you in the world.
TO everyone who doesn't believe in the power and meaning behind this day, I pray you will soon come to understand. but more than that I hope you will help a friend, or help a stranger; or take a moment to live a little. laugh a little. be free. Because you are. you are forgiven for anything you have ever done by jesus, and you are now free to BE.
From an unlikely prophet I was welcomed into the truth. The Goo Goo Dolls came up on my stereo and I thought, wow, I didn't know they were Christian. but then I realized even if that's not true, the message is the same: that everyone is forgiven now, and it is our chance for renewal. Christmas: take two, perhaps. It is a rebirth of life in the world. We are set free from the dirth and dirge of the Lenten season. The flowers spring up (or the snow blankets the earth in some places...) and we are reminded of the glorious emergence of the holy son in supreme power and might.
This song is absoultely perfect for this day, it is about renewal, second chances and HOPE in the power of the people, not in the isolated power of the One. He has given us the same home, and the same power to set others free. It is a good day, because we are allowed to recognize the beauty in the world, and that from every torturous moment, there is an exodus, a revelation of a hopeful future. :D
Thank you God, and the Goo Goo Dolls.
Hallelujah.
-Judi
Monday, April 06, 2009
Working on Love. The (re)building of the self.
It is not good to cherish the broken, but it is best to rejoice in the benefits of the pieces.
It will not bring peace to hold onto what is wrong, but it is most righteous to understand correction.
It is not the shattered which brings instant solutions, but the entire process of nurturing the potential of healing which becomes Love.
-Judi Keefe. 10:16 April 6th, 2009.
I would also like to share the memorial FB post for Courtney Neil (who passed away on the 29th of March, 2009. I wrote this in minutes, and though I never really knew Courtney as a friend, she was the first person who I had met and known to some extent that has passed away. I am very sorry for any one who knew her more closely. And I am blown away at how much emotion and grief I feel for someone whom I was never overly friendly with. I suppose this is the majesty of God's spirit, that we all share a common humanity through the common spirit running through us. here it is. I will never doubt the power of human emotion again...
"Such a fantastic picture, of a girl with so much potential and some misunderstandings and a few wrong turns. I'm sorry Courtney for being distant when you were calling out for a friend. May you forever rest in the peace and happiness you so rightfully deserved here on earth.
Blessed be your soul by the Father in Heaven.
I miss you, and all that you would have been.
I'll see you in that parade of angels, past the dark side of the moon, beyond the worst emotions of the world. May you be remembered by all those you so gently touched."
Love, and God bless. I know I don't say it alot, but the thrust of spring crocuses through the frozen ground is enough to crack open the soul of the most doubting sinner; The spirit of God is mighty and eager.
:D <3
It will not bring peace to hold onto what is wrong, but it is most righteous to understand correction.
It is not the shattered which brings instant solutions, but the entire process of nurturing the potential of healing which becomes Love.
-Judi Keefe. 10:16 April 6th, 2009.
I would also like to share the memorial FB post for Courtney Neil (who passed away on the 29th of March, 2009. I wrote this in minutes, and though I never really knew Courtney as a friend, she was the first person who I had met and known to some extent that has passed away. I am very sorry for any one who knew her more closely. And I am blown away at how much emotion and grief I feel for someone whom I was never overly friendly with. I suppose this is the majesty of God's spirit, that we all share a common humanity through the common spirit running through us. here it is. I will never doubt the power of human emotion again...
"Such a fantastic picture, of a girl with so much potential and some misunderstandings and a few wrong turns. I'm sorry Courtney for being distant when you were calling out for a friend. May you forever rest in the peace and happiness you so rightfully deserved here on earth.
Blessed be your soul by the Father in Heaven.
I miss you, and all that you would have been.
I'll see you in that parade of angels, past the dark side of the moon, beyond the worst emotions of the world. May you be remembered by all those you so gently touched."
Love, and God bless. I know I don't say it alot, but the thrust of spring crocuses through the frozen ground is enough to crack open the soul of the most doubting sinner; The spirit of God is mighty and eager.
:D <3
Monday, March 30, 2009
Why do I procrastinate?
OKay, so in the middle of writing my soc paper, (and when I say middle i mean the time between brainstorming and actually writing the thing) I realize that I don't care about it. Why don't I care? Because I don't think it matters. I don't think this paper's policy, though addressing real things with real consequences, with actually do anything. I really don't expect it to go to the Prime minister's office, to be read before the House of Commons or anything, but I do want to believe in what the paper is standing for. I want to be that kid that produces a world-class paper that is toted around front pages of newspapers and wins prizes for outstanding practical brilliance. However, the magic gets lost inside the words. It gets lost inside the perfectly crafted ideas and well-researched policy. It is becoming something not to care about, but to do and get it over with, like so many other people are able to do. Why can't I produce a meaningless paper? Why can't I pretend this is just another assignment that I have to do to pass the course, get my degree and move on? Because I'm not that kind of person. I don't want just to 'get a degree'. I want to become something meaningful, like a teacher or a researcher, or a brilliant lecturer, or even some crazy woman that feeds the birds in the park. I want my life to matter, but is it that there are so many people in the world that it's not even possible for us to feel like we can make an impact??
We are told everyday that we make an impact, though it is one that is harmful, that the WHOLE WORLD'S problems are in our hands, and it's because it's our problem in the first place. Though it may not even have been us, or our parents, or our grandparents who started it (it may have been the guy who decided to move away from his at-home-business in his cottage into the city to make mass quantities of stuff so that more people can have it, and then he told his friends to do the same, and the whole world becomes a big line of consumption...Maybe it was him, but even still, we are told that it is OUR fault, and we need to live in dark caves (though we can bring our cell phones) to fix 'our' problem.
This is not the impact we dreamed of as six year olds who 'want to make a difference'. Those six year olds felt something more magical than that, they wanted to help their neighbor out of poverty, or make sure every kid has a friend, or the classic: they would give 'half of their imaginary million dollars to a charity'. These kids could change the world, in the sense that they were thinking of someone else other than themselves. However, who's to say that they actually believed in it? Maybe it is that kids are brainwashed into this charity mentality from a young age through religion, goodwill, parents values, etc. While these are all good reasons, I say this is too much of a burden to put on little kids. They should be able to play and make friends (or lose friends) all on their own. It is the art of exploration, and science of sadness, which creates meaningful childhood.
So now, while I (not a kid anymore, though with enough regrets to want to go back and change it all....) am sitting here attempting to craft an A out of this assignment, the world is still in trouble: thousands of children have died while I have blogged to figure out my own psyche, millions of people are still in poverty, thousands of people fell in love, millions of people are in ill health and wish they could die, and millions more in the developed world contemplate suicide because they are convinced their life sucks. I wonder why? Probably because we, the more developed (which makes us more capable?) humans, are expected to become saviours for the world. We have achieved more than ever imagined so therefore we must give everyone else the same luxury. WHY? Is this seriously good!? Yes I am healthy (physically, I have no chronic infection, disease or crippling mental disorder) and yes I have great food, and amazing infrastructure to keep me safe, though I ask: is our excess an attainable ideal for everyone? Likely, no. Acutally there have been many environmental gurus/academics who say that it is NOT the case, and we would need 2 or 3 more planets like Earth just to keep up with ourselves for the next century. Obviously we WILL have to downsize sooner or later so that we can all have an acceptible standard of living.
Though how do you convince the movie stars that we don't want them anymore. How do we convince ourselves that we can imagine life without them, or cell phones, or laptops, or facebook, or creme brulee???
To paraphrase and add to Barry Schwartz's arguement about practical wisdom,: I'm dissatisfied with the advancements we have created for ourselves to be able to do things faster and better. Yes we have more options, but that also leads to more choices we have to make, and from his other lecture, we learned that too much choice effectively paralyzes people into not acting at all.
There are so many possiblities for policy options that I do not know where to start, and what to conclude at the end. Of course, as an intro level paper, it's not supposed to change the world, but there is always that possibility, right?
We are told everyday that we make an impact, though it is one that is harmful, that the WHOLE WORLD'S problems are in our hands, and it's because it's our problem in the first place. Though it may not even have been us, or our parents, or our grandparents who started it (it may have been the guy who decided to move away from his at-home-business in his cottage into the city to make mass quantities of stuff so that more people can have it, and then he told his friends to do the same, and the whole world becomes a big line of consumption...Maybe it was him, but even still, we are told that it is OUR fault, and we need to live in dark caves (though we can bring our cell phones) to fix 'our' problem.
This is not the impact we dreamed of as six year olds who 'want to make a difference'. Those six year olds felt something more magical than that, they wanted to help their neighbor out of poverty, or make sure every kid has a friend, or the classic: they would give 'half of their imaginary million dollars to a charity'. These kids could change the world, in the sense that they were thinking of someone else other than themselves. However, who's to say that they actually believed in it? Maybe it is that kids are brainwashed into this charity mentality from a young age through religion, goodwill, parents values, etc. While these are all good reasons, I say this is too much of a burden to put on little kids. They should be able to play and make friends (or lose friends) all on their own. It is the art of exploration, and science of sadness, which creates meaningful childhood.
So now, while I (not a kid anymore, though with enough regrets to want to go back and change it all....) am sitting here attempting to craft an A out of this assignment, the world is still in trouble: thousands of children have died while I have blogged to figure out my own psyche, millions of people are still in poverty, thousands of people fell in love, millions of people are in ill health and wish they could die, and millions more in the developed world contemplate suicide because they are convinced their life sucks. I wonder why? Probably because we, the more developed (which makes us more capable?) humans, are expected to become saviours for the world. We have achieved more than ever imagined so therefore we must give everyone else the same luxury. WHY? Is this seriously good!? Yes I am healthy (physically, I have no chronic infection, disease or crippling mental disorder) and yes I have great food, and amazing infrastructure to keep me safe, though I ask: is our excess an attainable ideal for everyone? Likely, no. Acutally there have been many environmental gurus/academics who say that it is NOT the case, and we would need 2 or 3 more planets like Earth just to keep up with ourselves for the next century. Obviously we WILL have to downsize sooner or later so that we can all have an acceptible standard of living.
Though how do you convince the movie stars that we don't want them anymore. How do we convince ourselves that we can imagine life without them, or cell phones, or laptops, or facebook, or creme brulee???
To paraphrase and add to Barry Schwartz's arguement about practical wisdom,: I'm dissatisfied with the advancements we have created for ourselves to be able to do things faster and better. Yes we have more options, but that also leads to more choices we have to make, and from his other lecture, we learned that too much choice effectively paralyzes people into not acting at all.
There are so many possiblities for policy options that I do not know where to start, and what to conclude at the end. Of course, as an intro level paper, it's not supposed to change the world, but there is always that possibility, right?
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Freed Verse
in the drop drop of this dreary town
i hear your pulse pulse from home.
the bllink blink of these traffic lights
warn me...tick tock gone.
Time hasn't stood still for me or you
Time hasn't become what I wanted it to.
Your eyes scream at me
your voice stares.
and I'm paralyzed (but do you care?)
it's not too hard to say, "Yes that's who I'll be"
when you're ten, but
When it matters, you have to pretend its true.
But then everything happens,
and the tightly wound
ball of wool is
knotted and silent.
and they'll all look at you and say: that girl, she's got it under control.
but you smile because no place in the rules
did they say you had to.
This is how we live: this every-thing and no-thing
all tied up in His ball of string
with plans and possibilities
that are
more than everything; less than nothing.
-Judith Keefe// March 19, 2009.
i hear your pulse pulse from home.
the bllink blink of these traffic lights
warn me...tick tock gone.
Time hasn't stood still for me or you
Time hasn't become what I wanted it to.
Your eyes scream at me
your voice stares.
and I'm paralyzed (but do you care?)
it's not too hard to say, "Yes that's who I'll be"
when you're ten, but
When it matters, you have to pretend its true.
But then everything happens,
and the tightly wound
ball of wool is
knotted and silent.
and they'll all look at you and say: that girl, she's got it under control.
but you smile because no place in the rules
did they say you had to.
This is how we live: this every-thing and no-thing
all tied up in His ball of string
with plans and possibilities
that are
more than everything; less than nothing.
-Judith Keefe// March 19, 2009.
Friday, February 27, 2009
Confused? Sum it up in 5 minutes.
What am I confused about? I am confused about what I want to be in the future. I am confused about what people expect of me. I am confused about how I am supposed to act in given situations. I am confused about learning, both the topics I study and the process of maintaining information in my brain. I am confused about How to go about my day. I want to be awesome and respected, but I am now confessing I don’t have enough strength to stick to anything long enough to become proficient at it. Enough with the self relection, why not talk about anthropology: The study of cultures and the cultural use of the world. Geographically we learn about the spread of people in the past and in the current world. We learn about the intermixing of cultures due to globalization in geography class, and this could be connected as to why people want to learn about individual cultures now, because we have lost so much of our diversity. In promoting multiculturalism we promote globalization. Traditions and customs (bows/handshakes, burkas, jewelry, religious holidays, the ‘standard’ calendar) are amalgamated together now as the western (American) culture is taking over. This is because many modern corporations wish to be associated with the United States due to their economy being so powerful.
I am confused about how I can make myself what I am supposed to be. I am confused about how I can worry in a way that isn’t pathetic. I am confused about why we are all here. I really want to know why God started this game of “Sims”. Are we better than the infinite expanse of the universe? Is he God to other planets? There is that possibility, though, because he created the universe the other inhabited planets must acknowledge his presence somehow. What stage of evolution are other creatures on other planets? What species are they? Are there any other humans out there? Do our laws of physics only apply to this world? How much knowledge is there discovered about life on other planets? How much do we even know about other planets? I think it would be great if we could know more about the universe. I suppose other people do too. Until then, though we can begin to understand our own planet’s history, present and future.
I am confused about how I can make myself what I am supposed to be. I am confused about how I can worry in a way that isn’t pathetic. I am confused about why we are all here. I really want to know why God started this game of “Sims”. Are we better than the infinite expanse of the universe? Is he God to other planets? There is that possibility, though, because he created the universe the other inhabited planets must acknowledge his presence somehow. What stage of evolution are other creatures on other planets? What species are they? Are there any other humans out there? Do our laws of physics only apply to this world? How much knowledge is there discovered about life on other planets? How much do we even know about other planets? I think it would be great if we could know more about the universe. I suppose other people do too. Until then, though we can begin to understand our own planet’s history, present and future.
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Education
I build up knowledge
For what? For what?
To repeat, to repeat, to repeat.
and Vibrancy of youth turns
dull, dull.
Though it is apt to remember
to remember
to remember.
all words you say can and will be used
For what? For what?
for Gossip, Gossip, gossip.
For what? For what?
To repeat, to repeat, to repeat.
and Vibrancy of youth turns
dull, dull.
Though it is apt to remember
to remember
to remember.
all words you say can and will be used
For what? For what?
for Gossip, Gossip, gossip.
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