Personalities Encapsulated

So, I never really knew how much I honestly was my own person, ultimately defined by my stuff and ideas, until living in residence when myself and everyone of my floormates is confined to a single room to hold all our possessions of past lives.
It is such a concentrated expression of the person that it helps define who we have been, what we value, and what we could potentially become. Of course we buy more things and remove others; but in their addition, or absense, it is also an expression of who we are and what we value.
For example, my room has a wall of CD covers reflecting a variety of musical interests. Some people like the design/idea, and others appreciate the content of the CD covers. It is a conversation starter to have your whole life plastered against four small walls.
I always value insight into other people's rooms as well: if someone has very little on their walls it often means they are more focused on schoolwork than decorating, though that is not a problem. Others though, spend a meticulous amoutn of time perfecting the arrangement of the posters and furniture in their room (myself included).
IT is an example of how we value and create a place. A place in a personal sense, holding much meaning for the creator, and a perfect example to onlookers of the values of the perosn whom you are in their place. (Thank you GENV...)

I care too much. These are some thoughts.

I care too much about the planet to forget about it. I don’t want to focus on something so trivial as psychology and the minds of people who destroy the planet.

I care about people, but I think I must care about the ethereal future people more than I care about the people now.

I can be something to this world, but will I be able to be something to God as well? Do I have to be directly responsive to God’s desires? Can I live my life passionately, and that will be enough? How do I know when it is God’s desire for me? What signs do I have to look for? How do I become self-sacrificing as opposed to self-supporting?

I want to have a powerful and permanent outlet for my ideas; I want to effectively share my ideas with others. I want to know what these ideas are.

I want support from the people around me, though I want my honest support for them to be noticed, respected and utilized. I want to share ideas with those around me, but I don’t know how. I want to spread the idea of local reliance, and slow living; of appreciation of the simpler things, of art, geography and culture. I want to emphasize the beauty of this planet in a way that gets people thinking, and in absolute awe.

I want to have a disposition which draws people and keeps them in. I want to be able to enjoy life in a way which is respectful to people and to my God. I want other people to question and appreciate my ideas because I will appreciate and question theirs. I want to be involved in discussion, with understanding that we are not all the same, and we all do not enjoy the same topics, nor do we all care passionately about the same things. I want, though, to be able to live in a world where we can be open and share these ideas with each other.

I want to be a part of a group of people who cares deeply for the environment around us; to live with respect in Creation at all times. To go about our days with personal, spiritual and respectful desires; (“And I think to myself: What a wonderful world!”). I care deeply about conserving our own consumption to ensure we do not become greedy. I want to leave enough for future generations, though I cannot honestly imagine how many generations are left.

I want to be interesting and interested. I am interested, though to become interesting I need to expand and develop these fascinations. I need to gain knowledge, not simply appreciate the honesty or dishonesty of statements. I need to become a citizen, not a spectator. Living is not a spectator sport. We must cease simply existing, and take on living as a hobby. We must make it a part of ourselves to relish (and mustard?) in the simple things, and the immensely difficult things which we are so passionate about. I hear philosophy emerging about appreciating the simple things of life, to take time away from our busy life and relax; though what good does that do in the long run. Don’t relax; but do something enjoyable that isn’t your day job. Become a person of contribution and of appreciation.

How do we do these things in a world so focused on the economy? How do we maintain and develop ourselves in a world so focused on globalization? However, how do we even manage to develop ourselves without knowing all there is to know of the outside world? It is required to know and appreciate all characteristics of the world to be respected. It is of vast and immense importance to be who the world and/or God wants you to be. We have to conform to so many restrictions, and in some ways, yes, it makes us better.

Though is it always for the best? What are the ultimate consequences of this discovery? How should we spend our time? Reading a book or acting on it? Playing a game or conversing? Eating or fasting? Relaxing or protesting? Becoming or refusing to conform? Is it better to complain or remain silent? Should we accept or refuse to remain where ever we are?

I know we're all too busy trying to get by, but shouldn't we have something bigger that we care about immensely? I think even in times when it seems to difficult to become anything different, that we should take that time to learn why we are struggling and after reflecting on it, become it. The easiest things are usually not the most worthwhile. If they seem worthwhile for our selfish being, they usually exclude the rest of the world.

...This is me, deciding on a major.